.Thursday, August 21, 2008 ' 1:50 PM Y
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i haf did reflection...i haf made a choice...a choice tat might just change my life totally...
i chose to GIVE UP on them...perhaps i m nt sure whether i can do it...but i haf to just show a strong front ba...i may cry in the nite,but i will do it silently...i may smile at u guys,but i will do it secretly...i may ignore u all,but rite in me i m telling myself nt to...hais...
finally pass a day,which i tink i couldn't get used to...
in class...
i sit alone,because i feel "extra" sitting with u all...
out of class...
i walk alone,because i dun want disturb u guys...
after school...
i go home alone or with qiqi,because i guess is pointless to go together agn...
perhaps...my happiness are just fake happiness...but i appreciated it much...
i dun wan to be silly ani more...
i appreciate all we had in the past...
perhaps is my problem now...i dunno how to face u guys...i chose to escape...in the "xian shi" de shi jie li..."mei you shui dui shui chuo"...
perhaps...like wat i say...my heart is troubling mi...i dunno how to manage all this any more...i tried to tell myself...4get everytink...just act like nth happened...but i can't...perhaps...tat day i was really humiliated 2 much...my confident of making fren with u all are all shatter...i dunno how to bring it together agn...perhaps i dun even no...will we ever get the chance to laugh...to talk...to share problem all together agn...i just no wat i was doin now is act of coward...i just wan to run away ba...
next coming monday...i goin to have my prelim practical exam...my sit is just next to andrew...perhaps i just gonna continue ignoring ba...perhaps...4get abt the idea of study out this sat also ba...i no i m selfish to do all this tink...i m a idiot...a bastard...a bitch...watever u guys wan to scold say abt mi i will accept...i won't scold back or defence...coz i no "wo mei you zhi ge"...suan le ba...
take care...
a scar will always remain there...no matter how much u tried to hide it...it will never goes away...
i m just gonna study and dun gif a damn to any other tink now...i m just to tired to tink anymore now...
FOR THE READERS:D
love ur fren...please dun ever hurts them...u might gonna lose them one day if u hurts them deeply...teasing each other is just part of the fun where friendship haf...but do nt go beyond the line,because u might hurt them deeply...i can simply tell u guys tat i experienced it,and it really hurt mi alot...i feels my heart shattering,because they are the 1 i treat no other than my bestie...the ones i treated as important as my loved one...but in return i gt all this...hais...i dunno how to chose...should i gif up or should i nt?sitting down to tok 2 them do help?i realli dunno...
mind giving mi sum opinion?:D
