.Saturday, August 30, 2008 ' 11:49 PM Y
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hmmm...2day was woke up by mummy's nagging!:[
she wanted mi to go see doctor with her at amk...kind of "ÿawn"
=.="
watever it is...i woke up lo...go shower and change then get out of this hus...haha...
see the doctor sho damn damn long lo:(
sho we register le then go makan makan...40 mins later we go bak...still like haven reach yet?=.="
waited another 5 or 10 mins...then reach our turn...she registered then we waited another 45mins to 1hour to see doctor...take medicine another 45 mins gone-.-"
gosh man...imagine 1 dying person go die...die le la-.-"
ok watever...blah blah blah...
finished liao...we go shop shop see see...
i saw this pink strapless dress...true to say...it is cute and pretty!!!:D
haha...kind of another dress to consider 4 prom liao...yay!i goin next week to shop and see more...haha...watever...i m now crazy over dresses :D
xD
then i see quite a few top and bottom i would like to get over the holiday lo...
:D
just now sum tink unpleasant happened...here it goes...
i went to buy makan with daddy...sho all the way he was complaining to mi...about this and tat...blah blah blah...then the content is abt mummy la...
then i just kip walking lo...then kip say is like tat 1 la...er...haha...sum tink like tat lo...then after we buy everytink le...on the way home...another round of complaint...blah blah blah...then reached hm...ask everyone to makan lo...then i ask mummy y dun clean the alter 4 daddy...then she angry with mi:(
then i was like sho shock and panicking lo...dunno wat to do...then she dun want take the dinner le...actually i was angry also la...coz is like she scold mi lo...when i just asking her lo...then i almost burst into tears la...but i bear with it...then i continue eating lo...then finish le...daddy want to buy joss stick...we went market agn...daddy say if he come bak...and the packet of food we bought 4 her wasn't consume...he will throw away...lucky come bak she neva eat but daddy never act up...sian ar...then everytink ended la...
1hour later...
marmie ask mi want eat anot...then i say ok lo...then she scold mi agn...i gan pua tulan...say dun wan eat le...she scold sum more...sian ar...i realli wanted to go the rm and bang my head against the wall...but i never la...she suddenly sho nice ask mi go eat in a veri pleasant voice...then i kip dun want...suddenly i just go eat abit then ask her eat the rest lo...hais...
dunno wat is happening to my family la...
will it fall apart?
will my family break up?
will i b a orphan infuture?
will i b all alone next time?
will i lose my loved ones?
will ...?argh...i dunno wat i saying or thinking now...
my brain is bursting now...is it filled with this question...i dunno...
i realli dun want to lose anyone...
i knew the feeling of losing tat important sum 1 in ur life...
i dun wan to experience it again...
i am sure i will go insane...
hais...i dunno hu to talk to...
talk to ting?argh...i dun dare...
talk to andrew?no...i owe him too much...
talk to hu?awww...
no 1 is there for mi...i m all alone...i knew it...
recently i kip having sum dreams...
if i dream of sumthing happening...
it will really come true the next day...
i swear...
i dunno...
i told marmie...she ask mi to dream of her striking 4D...
argh watever...
i came to tink abt sum tink...
wat if i dream of myself dying?
o no...i dun dare to continue tinking...
wat if i dream of losing a loved one in my life...
i dun want to...
hais...
i realli hope nth like this happen...
if it gonna b...then let it b mi dying ba...
at least every 1 ard mi will b safe...
if onli u guys are safe,my life will b happy...
here my apologies ba...if i can't live to say it...
ANDREW:dunno you will read it anot...but i still gt to say i am sorry ba...i no i was veri cold to u...i guess u sense tat i was a different person to u rite now...but trust mi...i never just tat on the surface it seems like it is...i will always treat u as my best fren de...coz u are realli my best fren...u have accompany mi through all my sorrow and pain...u accompany mi through the nite on the phone even though u r tired...u never fail to reply my msg whenever i m sad and needed sum 1 to b there...thank you my fren:D
TING:i dunno wat to say le lo...SORRY ALSO:(
i didn't change back...i was always like tat...ever since tat day i promise nt to let u go...ur words "dun let mi go"...touch my heart...i didn't no wat is "treasure wat i have now before i regret"...till we quarrel the 1st time...i feel regret when i say i give up...but i m happy enough tat...i gt a 2nd chance to say "no,i won't give up"
thanks to u:D u will always remain as my bestie...no matter wat happened...
MUMMY:i am sorry mummy...for i m rude to u at times...i realli regret...but i dunno how to express it to u...but u will never fail to forgive and forget...u are sho noble...sum time i get realli tired of ur nagging...but i m scare u will stop it...sum time i hate it when u r strict...but i scare u will let loose on mi and i will turn wild...i knew sum time in the nite...when i m aslp...u come in to my room...and gif mi a hug and kiss on my fore head...i knew all this...coz when u came into my room...i woke up...i was sho touch...tears roll down my face...but i kept quiet...because i m afraid if i say it out...it will b the last time u will do it...i m realli sorry mummy...u r always the best...i promise mummy...i love u :D
BORLIAN:i dunno whether u still spare ur time reading my blog anot...but ya...here is my apologies to u...i m sorry...no matter is it for now or for the past...i owe u this apologies for a long time liao...i must now return it to u...i dunno when i will die...i realli dunno...but i just nid u to no tat...i m real sorry for watever tat happen...maybe i haf hurt u in the past...mayb i have nt...whether is there a scar i dunno...but memories is wat i can guarantee tat will never b erase any faster...watever it is ba...i hope like wat u say...we can b fren ba...unless sum miracle happened tat changes ur mind?o...i dunno ba...i dunno will i b able to stay alive to see u say those words to mi...8 letter 3 words and 1 special meaning...i hope i can:D
and ya...i stay tune to ur blog...and found out tat u kip seeing gal...if it is...then is gd ba...at least u r nt like ben...dun find gf?LOL...watever...all the best to u:D i seems like extra bias to my 2 best fren...coz u gt a extra long note...sho end here...BB!!!
did i left ani 1 out also?if i gt i will post here :D
bb:D
i dunno want to dream anymore:(
no dream please...
if there is a must 4 it...
then let it b my parents striking 4D
:D
